God deals with everyone differently and most times when you think there is someone that understands the struggle you face you find that you are really walking this path alone.
I have recently started to see myself in a different light and I will admit that there are days when I hate what I see. Sometimes you think that your light is shining and that God is pleased with you only to learn that you are a mess and the light that comes from you is very dim. What a hard pill to swallow when you think you’re in a good position with God only to learn that is so far from the truth. But we serve a gracious God who looks beyond our faults and goes straight to what we need. Thank you Lord for grace and mercy that you provide each and every day.
My soul longs for a closeness with God and when I am in his presence I can feel the spirit moving in me , yet as wonderful and fulfilling as it is to be apart of this greatness I constantly fail. As I type these thoughts I know that it is merely the enemy doing his due diligence and my shaky faith that allows these things to manifest.
God can only do what we allow him to do in our lives for he will never force himself on anyone. He will freely take care of you when you submit to him and allow him to do so. We always want God to perform miracles and wonders but how often do we truly submit and embrace his will for our lives ?
Lord help me not to take on a spirit of fear but to have a clean heart and a sound mind as you show me how to keep your words on the tables of my heart and mind while renewing a correct spirit in me at all times.
In order to change you must first accept that there is disruption and once you can see the truth in your crisis you embrace a submissive heart fueled by humility one that yearns for truth direction and purpose. Lord help us to see ourselves as you see us and let us give up all we know to gain eternal victory !
Love and Blessings