It’s been a non-stop rush of tragedy and problems for me since the year began. I have cried and prayed and cried and prayed and smiled through it all. For the first time in a long tome I didn’t ask God why ? (at least I don’t remember) I refuse to do it now I will just take whatever happens and keep on living. I feel that slow smothering mist of doubt seeping into my space yet again and I have to fight to live in peace . This morning I came to the conclusion that I need to search myself starting deep down in the core of my being to seek out the root to all the chaos that surrounds me. I could easily blame the enemy for this but the truth is I have allowed this to be. The bible tells us that if we resist the devil he has to flee , yet often times we accept the pain grief self pity and so on without hesitation.
We must learn to give our all over to the Lord and ask not only for help but forgiveness. Forgiveness for getting to this point where we kicked God out of the equation and tired to make it happen on our own. It is impossible to please him when you don’t respect him enough to let him fix the broken pieces. Lord help my unbelief and direct me in your perfect way. Show me the errors of my ways and enlightened my heart and mind , I trust your process just give me the strength to endure to the end.
Love and Blessings