My life is out of sorts and the people I love are hurting . Death , sadness and disappointments have become a common ground . I have been told that if it doesn’t kill you it will certainly make you stronger . Hmm , not to sure about that because sometimes I feel like I’ve already died a thousand deaths . Life is funny that way , you go through so many trails and errors bumps and forks in the road but at the end you always come out of it alive . I have had near death experiences 5 times in my 48 years hear on this planet and each time has altered me into who I am at this moment . I used to feel like Job because I too lost so many many things in my life . From homes to cars , money and even babies . Wow looking at this on the screen makes me sad for the little girl that wanted tea parties and happiness .
Well faith is the key that unlocks every door and because of the love God has for me I am able to stand the test of time . I know that I am much stronger than I realize and no matter the obstacle I will be victorious . I am known for being the person that puts the smile back on your face the one that cries with you and for you . I’ve been told numerous times that my words of wisdom have helped so many on levels I never thought possible . Thoughts of suicide have always been hidden in the shadows anxiously waiting it’s turn , sorry that fear will not come to the surface .
So many things are causing me to self evaluate on an deeper level and perhaps this is simply another way God is preparing me for the new journey ahead . Either way I will trust you Lord for all that has happened and all that will be , I will trust you !!!
Love and Blessings
