I have been going through a lot of things this year and most of it I believe is self afflicted . I can honestly say that I am by far the hardest critic concerning the things of Nikki , always hard on myself for what I should have done or what I should not have said . Today I want to begin taking self inventory of me , I want God to show me where my failure really stems from so that I can relieve myself of this unwanted and unnecessary burden . The Lord tells us all the time to cast your burdens on him for he can take it and get us through it but often times we just address the problem in a savage state of mind and are left stuck in a troubled place with no way out.
My desire is to do the will of God and with this I know that I will endure much suffering , but as crazy as this may seem to you I will gladly take it because I know that he will be with me always and he will bless me and my family for the faithfulness I show. In order to fix the problem you must first accept that the problem exist . Denial is a hindering and vile creature to the majority of us and this is why we can never move forward . I often look over my writings and quotes that I have either penned down or placed here on the blog and my social media pages and realize that the messages I give are first meant for me . There is no possible way to help anyone if you are not first willing to accept that you need the help and then be willing to accept it. Yes I believe that this self inventory is much needed in order for me to grow and be able to elevate myself in this growth process .
Stop allowing self to get in the way and ask God to show you the flaws and dirty side of you that you may have no idea is even there , press for the higher calling and purpose for your life and embrace it in all it’s entirety . The way may be unpleasant but remember ….. ‘nothing good comes easy’ so prepare yourself to fight the fight and finish the course because at the finish line is a wonderful blessing !!!
Love and Blessings