Focus on the positive things in life not on the things that are unbearable
I find it hard sometimes to stay focused on what’s ahead of me because I constantly drift back to the past . Past fear, hurt , pain and scrutiny . I often think that my life is meaningless and can’t understand why I am not dead . After all I have been at the feet of death five times and each time God has spared my life . Selfish is the feeling I have in my gut because he loved me even when I didn’t deserve it . Confused still by his grace and mercy that he provides towards me each day . Clouded are my thoughts and views yet I refuse to let go of his promise to never leave or forsake me even till my last breath . Torn God in my heart and inner man because I just want to please you yet my toughest fight is within me. Battling and struggling with thoughts of failure , insecurities and grief . Wow , I am a mess …..
One thing I am confident of is that God is my strength , my guide and my friend . I can and will do what is destined for me no matter what doubt the enemy places in my path . I can do all things through Christ that gives me the strength !!!
Love and Blessings