We have all faced short comings at one time or another but how long are you willing to stay stuck there? Acceptance is the first step to healing , then you can address the issue and move on towards a resolution. I have been struggling in a few areas in my personal and spiritual life feeling as if things will never change for me and that it’s just Gods way for me to be burdened forever. Smiling on the outside yet falling apart from the inside refusing to accept that this pain wasn’t meant to stay. Daily I’d wake up put that smile on my face and walk out into the world like it was all good , but it was just lies and more deceit towards me. The enemy had step up camp right in the center of my life and was having a grand ole time . As time progressed and the new year kicked in I reached a point where my mind took over and my body shut down , the power of the mind is great and can alter everything you thought you controlled. One night I was home alone and floods of memories came all at once and I got so overwhelmed I screamed out ” why God why?”. The tears started to fall so violently as if I had just witnessed a horrific event . I just couldn’t get it together and once again I cried out to God . I had a quick notion to call my mom but she would have freaked because I didn’t have the strength to even form words. It was then that God revealed to me that he was the supplier of my needs and that I must give it all to him.
Since that episode occurred I began to change my way of thinking and how I allow things to upset my balance. The enemy is still attacking me but now he is no longer welcomed in my space so he uses people I love to cause displeasure . No matter what thoughts pop up or circumstances arise I have to keep my eyes on Jesus , he is the source of my strength. This was suppose to be an uplifting message not a confession , but I need to convey to you that we are weak but when God is added to the equation things will change. Do not be afraid to serve those eviction papers to everything holding you back , the only outcome is happiness and who doesn’t want that !!!!
Love and Blessings